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Thursday, March 29, 2007
6:35PM
Feeling generally blah, lately. I'm getting quite burnt out at work. They keep promising help that does not appear. I have a list of interesting exciting things to work on, but am too bogged down with admin crap to do any of them. My supervisor has no idea what I do all day and doesn't seem to think I have a brain in my head, which adds to the frustration. I've toyed with the idea of quitting, but would hate to leave. If I get the help they promised me I think I'd really enjoy the job. I'll have to wait and see.
Busy few months coming up. 3 weddings in 3 months, two that I have to travel for and one I'm in. Bought clothes for all of them (well waiting for the groomsmaid dress to arrive) now just need to joing the Y behind work and drop a few pounds. Not happy with the way I look lately.
Hubby has been house sitting for friends in the South Bay all week but is coming home tonight. It's silly how much I miss him. I can go about 2 nights, but last night I slept terribly because he wasn't there.
Current mood:  aggravated
Monday, March 26, 2007
Making a valiany attempt to start writing on this again, if for no other reason then to keep certain members of the group apprised of the California goings on. Heading to bed at the moment (off to a great I'mma start posting again! start) but in breif, job is kicking my ass, married life is verrry good, L and I bought dresses for several upcoming weddings and all the cats are alive an present. More later this week. Much love all.
Current mood:  sleepy
Sunday, May 1, 2005
4:41PM
In current news:
Julien's girlfriend is a cunt.
Louise has a job.
I have a new car.
And a boyfriend!!
May has been good to (some) of us.
Current mood:  giddy
Wednesday, February 2, 2005
11:28PM
Got my shiny new job and I'm happy happy happy.
Wednesday, January 19, 2005
12:16PM
So I've made the decision to quit my job. I've been looking a week or two and had a few calls and e-mails so I'm fairly confident I'll find a new job pretty quick. I just can't work here anymore. I have no motivation to get anything done. Louise has food poisoning and I had to stay home yesterday to take care of her. The meds she was on made her loopy. It was so nice not to have to come here. This morning all I wanted to do was stay home, but I forced myself to come in.
I feel like I'm going crazy. It's similar to the way I felt when I dropped out of college. Like the world is spinning around me out of control. I want to cry all the time, and I never cry. I want to sleep all day. Food doesn't really appeal, I have a few things I'll eat and I just eat them all the time. At least this time it's mainly sandwhiches, last time it was Rice Crispy treats. I don't know if this is the job, or my love life, or winter or what. I don't know what to do. I know I should probably go to a shrink or something but I don't see the point. I won't go on medications and I see no percentage in talking about it. I don't have any specific problems that I can fix. Talking doesn't get me a boyfriend or a job I like. I'm so tired of talking about it all. I hate that wanting a boyfriend means that much to me. I don't know how to turn off the bad thoughts in my head. I don't want to hurt myself or anyone. I just want my life - the world - to stop for a little while so I can get myself together again. I didn't want this to happen again. Is this just going to keep happening? Every few years my sanity just crumbles around me and I can't deal with my life anymore. I want it to stop. I want to be happy and enjoy things again. I want to not feel lonely all the time. I want to stop feeling like I'm coming out of my skin. I want to see some sort of end to this.
I should be working but I've just been wandering the internet all morning. I thought if I got this out here it would make me feel a little bit better. I guess it did, a little. I need to get to work. I can't leave if this place is a mess. I just wish I could find a way to care.
Current mood: depressed
Wednesday, January 12, 2005
8:29PM
Hee. I'm a Woadette.
Warrior -- Life is no bed of roses for you. It's
been a hard road and there's more yet to come,
but you're willing to face it. You ask no
quarter and give none. You are a fearsome rival
in love and a terrifying enemy to have, but a
more loyal friend can't be found.
What Type of Sexy Chick Are You? (warning: mild nudity)
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8:26PM
Well. . . yeah.
You are Wash. Not only are you a great pilot, you
are also the joker of the group. Your devotion
to your wife is admirable, though you sometimes
feel insecure. Thank god you shaved off your
moustache.
Which Firefly character are you?
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Tuesday, January 11, 2005
8:43PM
Saw White Noise. Liked it a lot. J liked it even more, I think. Brief review. I rip it to shreds because it's funnier that way but I really did like it.
Michael Keaton is happily married to his Blonde Second Wife. They have a happy little house near a happy little body of water. They just found out they're going to give Batman's son from his first marriage a happy little brother or sister. Surely nothing can go wrong.
Oh, Blonde Second Wife is missing! I am shocked. Everything was going so well!
Batman is approached by Enourmous Chinned Man who tells him that his wife is dead and trying to tell him something. Batman is sceptical at best.
BSW's body is found. Looks like she decided to change a flat tire. In the rain. On treacherous rocks. By the river. Perhaps this is Darwin in action and we should go home.
Time passes.
Batman has moved into an arty apartment with lots of windows, cool lighting and falling water metaphors. . . I mean art pieces. He's handling his wife's death by being stoic and weepy. Until she calls him on the phone. Well, leaves a message. Well, there's static on the answering machine that kind of sounds like her calling his name. Which is enough to send him to Enourmous Chinned man.
ECM is obsessed with EVP (so many letters) which is basically hearing voices in white noise (we have a title) and seeing faces and shapes in static. Apparently he's helped hundreds of people see shapes in inkblots.
OKay this is boring. Batman meets one of ECM's clients Sarah. He hears BSW in some static breifly but no more. He starts recording his own static to hear her. Eventually she does come to him, but only to send him off on a rescue mission. ECM is killed by a TV falling on him apparently and we are introduced to three ghostly shapes that are EVIL because they're black.
Have you noticed falling water drops look like static? The director did. A LOT.
The next hour is Batman trying to contact his wife, saving more people. His First Wife looks concerned a lot. And the audience plays find the three ghostly shapes in the shadows.
It really is a good movie and Keaton does a good job. We were both on the edge of our seat at all the right parts. And it has a little different ending.
Current mood:  scared Current music: Troy
Saturday, December 25, 2004
11:29AM
I GOT A SWORD!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Current mood: ecstatic
Saturday, November 27, 2004
12:07PM
All right, who needs stroking?
1. Reply to this post if you want/need me to tell you how cool you are!
2. Watch my journal over the next few days for a post just about you and why I think you rock my socks.
3. Post these instructions in your journal and give your friends a much needed dose of love and adoration!
X did it and I signed up so now I must.
Going to the 5 year high school reunion tonight. Assuming this sore throat gets better. Accursed allergies.
Current mood: sick
Friday, November 12, 2004
6:27PM
In the mail this week came a jury summons. In the mail last week came the invite to my 5 year high school reunion. Those would be the 5th and 8th circles of hell, respectively.
Jury duty is scheduled Dec 16th, maybe it'll be cancelled. Reunion is Saturday after Thanksgiving. I'm gonna go 'cause I look good, I'm pretty successful and I haven't hated anyone lately.
Got a promotion at work (happy dance). More money = happy Molly.
Getting hair dyed tomorrow. Also Xmas shopping. Only have one person crossed off list. Need more then that.
Must get extraneous cats out of house.
Off to play pool with buddies. Ta.
Current mood: naughty Current music: Whatever Julien is watching in the library. Might be Disney.
Thursday, November 4, 2004
10:56PM
Heeee. Got my promotion/raise. Very happy. Going out to dinner with Louise. Julien is in Oregon getting some.
See X, when you have a big girl job you get progessively MORE money. :> Snarky? Moi?
Going antiquing with Louise and her boy. I will kill half my Xmas list if it kills me. This I vow.
Current mood: relaxed Current music: Jubilee - Mary Chapin Carpenter
Tuesday, November 2, 2004
12:05PM
Hello all. Just a quick update this time.
Had major Halloween party for all the friends. Great time. Many funny pictures for the wall.
Louise has a boyfriend. Named Wes. Very nice guy. She's happy and glowing. It's nice.
I have a crush on Wes' rommate Dave. He has a gf named Brandi. Everyone hates her including Dave. He knows I like him. I think she knows I like him. Can you say clusterfuck? Knew you could.
Will be going to ladies night at a bar tomorrow in the hopes of attracting a mate.
Asked bosses for a major raise since I have been here one year tomorrow. Keep your fingers crossed for me. The bigger the raise the better the Xmas gifts.
Gonna have Thanksgiving for all our friends that don't have families around. Pot luck. I'm making a roast. Hopefully in my new oven. Must get to Sears.
Gonna have to have 2 Xmas parties one for everybody and one just for the Group.
X and Liam when will you be in town for Xmas?
I should be working.
Current mood:  busy Current music: Pour Me- Trick Pony
Friday, September 10, 2004
Louise, Julien and I drove to Santa Maria to meet Erica and Steve (Julien's friend) for 18 hours of debauchery. We played Marco Polo in the hotel pool. We ate steak. Then we drank. Quotes were added to the quote book, which I reproduce here for your enjoyment.
M: I spy something brown.
L: Is it grass?
J: It's the shit that I threw on your face.
L: Welcome to Greenfield.
J: Look at all the green! Do you see any green?
J: We're Dutch. Let's build a mill. . . Wait, where's the water? The Dutch made this place yellow, the fuckers.
J: You invaded yourself.
M: I do that often.
J: And we all thought Molly was impregnable.
J: Just because I wear the French flag as a diaper doesn't mean you can patronize me.
S: I was born without shoulders.
E: If he had all his teeth he'd be cute.
L: It's not fair, why doesn't he smell like old man?
J: Because I fart flowers.
M: Don't share.
L: If you don't see jizz then it's been watched and is therefore clean.
M: Can we get hookers because I'm horny and I don't have a vibrator.
E: Not it.
E: So long as we're taking our pants off you're happy?
J: OH YEAH.
M: His girl friend's my henchman.
J: Henchman? That means you'd have to be evil. . . Oh.
You know, typing this I realized I don't come off to well in this. Oh well. Talk to you later.
Wednesday, September 8, 2004
1:07AM
Louise and I saw Garden State yesterday because it's so bloody hot and theatres are air conditions. Garden State will go down as the movie that proves once and for all X and I have diabolically different tastes in movies and should probably stop discussing them.
I loved it. The whole thing. Especially the last five minutes. It's a coming of age picture written by someone in the middle of it. Every line rings true. I've had most of those conversations with my friends and myself. We want to go see it again, possibly with Julien and definetly own it. I could become one of my all time favorite movies. I think everyone between the ages of 22 and 28 should see it. Five stars, two thumbs surprise hit of the season etc etc.
BTW X, say I picked up some nice virgin wool yarn in non offensive colors. Would you want it shipped to you or saved here in the cat riddled house? Let me know.
Liam, we're working on coming to see your play. When does Taming happen? We might have better luck with that.
Thursday, July 15, 2004
9:58PM
So, uh, Liam. Louise, Julien, his girlfriend and I are going to be in Portland Saturday night. E-mail me for details. We want to see you.
Tuesday, June 29, 2004
8:16PM
So, my dad's in the hospital.
Sunday my mother called. Apparently he hadn't eaten since Friday, had thrown up (first time in 18years) and couldn't walk or sit up. BUT he wouldn't let her call an ambulance, because it would cost too much money. So, could I help her get him to the hospital Monday morning? Of course. Called out of work.
Monday morning we get him there around 10. I haven't seen him in a while and he looks BAD. Like final stage cancer paitient bad. I saw Liam's mom a month before she died and she didn't look this bad. They get him on an IV, take a blood test. Then an X-ray. Then a CT scan. At this point I'm thinking it's worse then anybodies telling us. Turns out what they thought was just gall stones had turned into an infection and they were going to have to do surgery immediatly.
I went home, checked in with work, puttered. Mom called around 7 to tell me they were doing the surgery that night instead of waiting for Tuesday. I brought her a Blast from Baskin Robbins and went to spa night. Louise was still at work with a humongus proposal that had become FUBAR. I come back from spa night and Louise is on the phone with mom. It's almost 10pm and he's still in surgery. We head over to keep her company as she had had enough of Dean Koontz and had read every magazine in the waiting room.
We weren't even there five minutes when the surgeon comes out. His gall bladder had ruptured, probably 2-3weeks ago and his entire adbomen was infected. They drained a liter and a half of pus. He said he had never seen a gall bladder look that bad on a living paitient and said there was no way dad should be alive. He's also afraid there might have been cancer, which has almost definetly spread to other organs. Barring that he could still die of the adomen infection.
So, he's in ICU. We're waiting pathology to see if it's cancer. We're waiting to see if he survives the infection.
And I really don't know what I'm thinking/feeling. I keep thinking if I talk or write it out I'll fee better or at least different, but I don't. It's weird and complicated and huge and I'm tired of waiting. I'd like for something just to be certain and decided.
Friday, June 11, 2004
And really, only two people read this. Who cares if I take up a lot of space?
*= read
#= like to read
Beowulf* (I own him, too. Currently he's in the rafters)
Achebe, Chinua - Things Fall Apart*
Agee, James - A Death in the Family* (Death was never so boring)
Austen, Jane - Pride and Prejudice
Baldwin, James - Go Tell It on the Mountain
Beckett, Samuel - Waiting for Godot#
Bellow, Saul - The Adventures of Augie March
Brontë, Charlotte - Jane Eyre*
Brontë, Emily - Wuthering Heights
Camus, Albert - The Stranger*
Cather, Willa - Death Comes for the Archbishop
Chaucer, Geoffrey - The Canterbury Tales (selections)*
Chekhov, Anton - The Cherry Orchard
Chopin, Kate - The Awakening* ((Wish I hadn't. Cheered when she drown.)
Conrad, Joseph - Heart of Darkness
Cooper, James Fenimore - The Last of the Mohicans* (College. . . I stab at thee)
Crane, Stephen - The Red Badge of Courage
Dante - Inferno* (Excellent)
de Cervantes, Miguel - Don Quixote
Defoe, Daniel - Robinson Crusoe
Dickens, Charles - A Tale of Two Cities
Dostoyevsky, Fyodor - Crime and Punishment
Douglass, Frederick - Narrative of the Life of Frederick Douglass
Dreiser, Theodore - An American Tragedy
Dumas, Alexandre - The Three Musketeers
Eliot, George - The Mill on the Floss
Ellison, Ralph - Invisible Man
Emerson, Ralph Waldo - Selected Essays
Faulkner, William - As I Lay Dying*
Faulkner, William - The Sound and the Fury
Fielding, Henry - Tom Jones
Fitzgerald, F. Scott - The Great Gatsby* (One of my favorite books)
Flaubert, Gustave - Madame Bovary
Ford, Ford Madox - The Good Soldier
Goethe, Johann Wolfgang von - Faust
Golding, William - Lord of the Flies* (So. . . many. . . times)
Hardy, Thomas - Tess of the d'Urbervilles * (One of the many books I read for school that made me want to kill myself or others)
Hawthorne, Nathaniel - The Scarlet Letter*
Heller, Joseph - Catch 22
Hemingway, Ernest - A Farewell to Arms*
Homer - The Iliad
Homer - The Odyssey
Hugo, Victor - The Hunchback of Notre Dame#
Hurston, Zora Neale - Their Eyes Were Watching God*
Huxley, Aldous - Brave New World
Ibsen, Henrik - A Doll's House
James, Henry - The Portrait of a Lady
James, Henry - The Turn of the Screw*
Joyce, James - A Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man
Kafka, Franz - The Metamorphosis *
Kingston, Maxine Hong - The Woman Warrior
Lee, Harper - To Kill a Mockingbird* (Love love love)
Lewis, Sinclair - Babbitt
London, Jack - The Call of the Wild* (We read it to the cats and bedtime)
Mann, Thomas - The Magic Mountain
Marquez, Gabriel García - One Hundred Years of Solitude
Melville, Herman - Bartleby the Scrivener*
Melville, Herman - Moby Dick
Miller, Arthur - The Crucible*
Morrison, Toni - Beloved#
O'Connor, Flannery - A Good Man is Hard to Find
O'Neill, Eugene - Long Day's Journey into Night
Orwell, George - Animal Farm* (What comunism? It's about talking animals dammit)
Pasternak, Boris - Doctor Zhivago
Plath, Sylvia - The Bell Jar
Poe, Edgar Allan - Selected Tales* (For the love of God Montressor)
Proust, Marcel - Swann's Way
Pynchon, Thomas - The Crying of Lot 49
Remarque, Erich Maria - All Quiet on the Western Front
Rostand, Edmond - Cyrano de Bergerac* (Has one of my favorite lines in literature)
Roth, Henry - Call It Sleep
Salinger, J.D. - The Catcher in the Rye* (Arrrr, stab, die)
Shakespeare, William - Hamlet
Shakespeare, William - Macbeth*
Shakespeare, William - A Midsummer Night's Dream*
Shakespeare, William - Romeo and Juliet*
Shaw, George Bernard - Pygmalion*
Shelley, Mary - Frankenstein#
Silko, Leslie Marmon - Ceremony
Solzhenitsyn, Alexander - One Day in the Life of Ivan Denisovich
Sophocles - Antigone* (In French no less
Sophocles - Oedipus Rex
Steinbeck, John - The Grapes of Wrath#
Stevenson, Robert Louis - Treasure Island
Stowe, Harriet Beecher - Uncle Tom's Cabin
Swift, Jonathan - Gulliver's Travels
Thackeray, William - Vanity Fair
Thoreau, Henry David - Walden* (Got and A on the essay, too
Tolstoy, Leo - War and Peace
Turgenev, Ivan - Fathers and Sons
Twain, Mark - The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn*
Voltaire - Candide
Vonnegut, Kurt Jr. - Slaughterhouse-Five *
Walker, Alice - The Color Purple
Wharton, Edith - The House of Mirth
Welty, Eudora - Collected Stories
Whitman, Walt - Leaves of Grass*
Wilde, Oscar - The Picture of Dorian Gray*
Williams, Tennessee - The Glass Menagerie*
Woolf, Virginia - To the Lighthouse*
Wright, Richard - Native Son
Sunday, May 30, 2004
8:59PM
So, yeah. Toured and put a bid on my dream home today. Built in 1865, gothic revival architecture, second oldset building in Belmont. There is a long story behind it too, that I will explain if we get it because it proves once and for all the existence of fate. We'll know tomorrow.
In other news we saw Troy last night:
I have never seen so much naked male flesh in all my life. I mean, seriously. It's three hours of eye candy. Everybody's got a nude scene. I mean, why are men even going to see this thing? And I am not normally a butt girl but I'll take a bite outta Brad Pitt's any day. Jennifer Aniston is a lucky, lucky woman. Orlando Bloom needs long hair and acts like a pansy most of the film, but we see everything but his willy so I don't mind. He also gets his hands on a bow and quiver at the end so he's not a total loss. And Eric Bana looks much better when he's not green.
Oh, the plot? Good, it was good. Borrows from The Iliad, The Odessy, some Greek history and miscellaneous plays, a nod to the Aneid and some the writer just seemed to make up but it works. I'm not a Greek dork but I didn't mind the changes I saw and historically it's very well done. I think it needs to be looked at as it's own thing, a new retelling of an old myth and a good telling at that. It was what the old epics used to be, grand sweeping visuals, wonderful characters and about a dozen plots. My only complaint is it is hard to decide who to root for. I mean, the Trojans are made the most sympathetic, but you know they lose. Louise and I finally decided just to root for Brad as an individual and were the happier for it.
I'd give it a perfect five out of five. I'd go see it again at full price and damn right I'll own it.
Quote 'o the day: Sticks and stones may break my bones, but whips and chains excite me.
Current mood: horny
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